Moving? Or Running in place?

Man, it's been a while since I've blogged. There's just been so much going on that I haven't had the chance. But these past few weeks I've been feeling so burdened and drained. Writing is my only release. I have so much to say, I just don't know where to begin.. but for now; this is exactly how i'm feeling: "I'm running out of time. I'm running out of space. I feel like I'm running around, but I'm running in place."

Random Thoughts

So, I learn from my mistakes. It's a very painful way to learn, but without pain, the old saying is, there's no gain. I found that to be true in my life. You miss a lot of opportunities by making mistakes, but that's part of it: knowing that you're not shut out forever, and that there's a goal you still can reach. I am responsible. Although I may not be able to prevent the worst from happening, I am responsible for my attitude toward the inevitable misfortunes that darken life. Bad things do happen; how I respond to them defines my character and the quality of my life. I can choose to sit in perpetual sadness, immobilized by the gravity of my loss, or I can choose to rise from the pain and treasure the most precious gift I have – life itself.

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!

Be blessed everyone. May you remember the true meaning of christmas and hold on to the promises of God.

Take my heart...

But please don't break it.

Keep it movin'

I stare at your picture for the last time

to ease my mind, this time I even break down and cry.

I had good reason for leaving you, I was never enough for you.

You had me doubting myself, putting me down.

But, baby i'm gonna keep smiling.

I'm gonna keep it moving'

Cause I don't need you.

I stayed with you so long

that I lost myself.

Now who would have thought that someone so independent

would become so damn submissive.

And sometimes in the back of my mind

i'd be missing you.

but, I will get through this

because I deserve someone better than you.

This heartbreak ends today

and I don't wanna give up on love.

I'll be moving on,

knowing I gave it my all.

I'm gonna keep it moving

Baby, I don't need you anymore.

Beautiful Mess indeed.

I thank God for what He's doing in me right now. I'm beyond pissed off!! I hate when you try and help people and give them words of advice and then they turn on you and stab you in the back. Yes, i'm a Christian.. i'm not stating i'm perfect. Yes, I used to drink and smoke my life away, but i've found love in Jesus and He saved me. Yes, I use to let him beat me everyday, but that's NOT me anymore. Man..I hate when you try and do good and people are so damn naive and continue looking at who you used to be rather than who stands before them NOW. ugh!

I love

Jesus. He's beautiful, understanding, loving, forgiving, strong, compassionate, He's everything. He is enough for me.